Thursday, July 22, 2004
what if i become numb one day??
really dun wan that to happen, becoz i can't bear 2 have u walk out of my life..
anyway, quite a lot of things happened 2 me today..
makin' me really confused..
should i actually treat tt person as a frenz or foe??
i wonder..since i have always seen her as someone who's nice and all..
then today i found out tt she might have juz suceeded in ruining my life.. making me lose 1 impt frenz in my life...
and e next thing i know, after readin her blog, i felt pity 4 her..& i dunno why..
actually, there is nothing to feel sad about...
i juz dunno...is she really as good as pple say??
esp. when i am hidden from the truth..
stuff has been going on & i juz nv been told of what's happening around me..
guess it's becoz i nv bothered 2 ask...
then i had a fight with jw over the past..or i should say my past..
really feel guilty about my horrible past with david and wm..
the unhappy past of lies, of broken promises, of stupidity..
wonder why i had been so blind..
esp. when i am treated as an object used for trading..
when i have a placard placed upon me, sayin "FOR SALE"..
u guys made my life miserable..
i was made a fool..
how softhearted i was before..
juz hope tt jw wun let me down like they did..
& hope i can throw away the past and create a new beginning with him..
becoz this time, i really know what i want, 4 the first time ever in my life...
that all i want is to be with him..and care 4 him..
becoz i really really treasure him so much..
juz hope tt he can read my thoughts & know how i feel bout him..
i trust him with my heart..believe tt he will love me the same way too..
so pls, dun break my heart again..
i have already been hurt countless times before..
dun hurt me again..
i love u..
♥ poured out my thoughts at
3:50 PM
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