Sunday, June 12, 2005
"u better stop going out or else i dont give u ur allowance for next week.."
"dun u know ur exams start right when sch reopens huh? u better study hard or else u know.."
"whole day see u rent vcd watch, watch tv play computer..dun need to study one ar? u better stop renting those vcds or else i throw them all away"
"u study tt time listen radio can concentrate ar? u better watch it..i tml take away ur radio then u know"
translate all these into chi and i can literally hear and see my mum scolding me once again..
till i'm so so sick and tired of it already..
if only i could grow up and move away from this home..
becoz i really hate it when my mum makes life difficult for me..
anyway..its been one bad week for me..since i went through alot of mood swings..
and i've been angry with lots of pple..
when i am actually not someone who gets angry easily..
hmmm..but i thought alot this week..
and i decided to reject dw..
becoz i found tt he was juz like the guys from my previous relationships..
expecting me to msg him first, to ask him out and stuff liddat..
expectin me to be a great 21st century lady who takes initiative..but i am not one..
in fact, i tried to take initiative before but it wasnt appreciated..so i nv want to do it anymore..and i dun wanna talk bout it..
but well, if i dun make things clear..the relationship will surely not work juz like all the previous ones..
actually..i thought, since he was my first bf 2 yrs ago and he left a lasting impression on me..why not give him another chance..
but i guess when i draw a clear line of what i want in a relationship..he just cant be one who takes responsibility..
and he even asks me not to be so calculating..
guess he still hasnt changed during these 2 yrs after i broke up with him..
but nvm..
not like i desperate to get into relationship..
and commit myself to a person..
to say the truth..being single is so much easier..
dun have to worry bout breakups, two-timing bfs, constant arguements, breaking hearts, lesser time spent with frenz..and dun have to watch ur every movement in case he gets jealous..
♥ poured out my thoughts at
3:02 PM
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