Wednesday, September 28, 2005

‘Now I know why you cant make a guy happy..’
This thought that has been stuffed into the back of my brain has resurfaced because something triggered it
And it isn’t a good thing.

Once again I am led to think deep into the matter and re-evaluate whatever has been going on.
The result as usual will always be as painful as those before and I am made to believe that I am the cause of it all.

I know I am like all other normal human beings who never ever blames themselves for bad things that happens.
Like everyone else, I am one who constantly push my responsibilities and duties and problems onto other people, just so that I can feel better about myself and think that perhaps, whatever happens is only a figment of my imagination. How I always wish I am never the one who made the mistakes and it was someone else who did.

But at the end of day, why am I doing this? When i will only get back to square one, with time wasted on trying to use lies to cover up whatever that was done.

Being through tough stuff proves to be an experience that one will never forget.
Esp. when it comes to matters of the heart.
I mean, how can u actually be sure that this or that guy you are with, really has true and genuine feelings for you when u have been with ones that didn’t care a damn about you??
Furthermore, what should you do when you suddenly realize whatever crap or un-offensive remark that person say about you actually really really matters to you? And that u are affected because that person really matters a lot to you now?
It is scary to think that once again u might actually care about someone more than he does towards you.

Should you ignore this fact till you are hurt again when he takes you for granted one day?
Or should you back away and learn to control your feelings, so that they wont run wild?

Relationships are never easy for me. There’s just so much going on up there in my mind.
Because I really wonder, when will I ever be good enough for you?
When will I be able to get good grades and straight As like you can?
When will I be pretty enough to match up to you?

Seriously, my life is just based on crap and crap and more crap.
Because I am not street smart, neither am I gorgeous enough, smart enough, talented enough, or cute.
I am just crappy.

Why did you even like such an imperfect girl like me to begin with??

Thursday, September 22, 2005

i know i havent been blogging any crap lately..and jorge, yr and shun are the only ones flooding my chatterbox..sorry guys..after prelims i'll be back!!

bye for now..

Monday, September 12, 2005

well..prelims are juz crap..
they give u loads of hw..expect u to finish them and then no time for u to actually study for ur prelims..

and then u dun have bonus pts to minus off..hard exam papers, kill brain cells and get so stressed tt u can literally pull ur hair off..

why muz education be SO impt in spore..not like i wanna achieve something like becoming a doctor, lawyer, or becoming someone recognizable by everyone around the world..

i juz wanna have a life full of life simple pleasures..
spend time with the ones i care about, the ones i love..
live life doing the things i love and not worrying bout having no money, bout politics and the economy decline or whatever there is happening around me..

but life's not like tt whether u like it or not
and it sucks

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

When the going gets tough.. all I wanna do is just give up and go do the things I love the best..

Pursue an arts degree at Laselle
or go abroad and study archeology
or become a tourist guide and explore the world..
Or I could even write crossword puzzle books
or open a shop tt sells all things purple, turquoise and black

but in reality, is all these things possible..?
can I really go far without a cert to show tt I completed a certain level of education??

Well, life is basically stressful and we are all in a rat race..and all of us have to complete it till the end..

I hate to admit it but I am juz tired of life already..
not saying tt I wanna die..
but I wanna break free of the norms of society where everyone is forcing their way through to get to university..
I wanna be different and prove tt education is not needed for success..
But I am not courageous and neither am I brave enough to make such a bold decision..

I am someone who chooses to back away when a prob arises..
When my mum called me to say tt miss tan called her to tell her how badly I did for the mock chem paper..
I didnt go home with my head up high, ready to take punishment..
Instead I chose to wander around the shopping centre, trying to use retail therapy to hide my shame and disappointment..

I guess..i am not tt different from everyone else anymore..
Arent I am following rules and regulations on how to be a human?

Yes I am..timid like everyone else..


what is love anyway??
izzit liking someone so much tt u give ur everything without wanting anything in return??
izzit based on the development of infatuation, sheer puppy love or tennage crushes??
or izzit juz something u see on tv..the fairytale true love stories tt nv ever come to life..

sometimes i wonder..and i came to realize..tt it has become a mere a figment of one's imagination or some word in the vocab data bank in one's brain tt one use so often..

saying the words 'i love you' have just becomed a routine for many guys who juz wanna hook up some girl and throw her away a few months later..
its like you are an unlucky hitch-hiker who gets a ride on a strangers car and later gets dropped off maybe in the middle of the ahara desert..

things like this are unpredictable..
how can u actually tell if the man or woman u are with now..IS the one who would carry on with you for the rest of ur life??

u nv know when he or she gets tired of u..
like food tt has expiry dates..partners do too..
but its whether or not u can make ur gfs/bfs live past their expiry dates tt make a difference..

nobody is perfect..everyone has flaws..u cant expect ur partner to be the one girl/guy on earth who is entirely holy and angelic and pure whatever..
yes..she/he may seem to be the perfect person at first..but there's bound to be relevations with time..
truths tt might shock u..hit u in the eye like a punch..

but is love so fragile tt it is even smaller than these little specks of dust?
is it so hard to accept someone for who he/she is?
why is it tt juz becoz u find a flaw in someone tt u cant accept..and then u lose all feelings for her??

i do not understand why..i juz know tt there's no true love on this earth..
even if there is..they are juz insignificant people who nv get the same amount of love back..

Friday, September 02, 2005

eh..very long never blog liao..
anyway..am at spiky's house now after the aces cum teachers' day celebration with alvin and of coz spiky..

very bored ma..since i am not able to use the internet at home..
all thanks to my two sis..

anyway..prelims start on mon next week.. or i should say after the holidays..
so kinda working hard la..but still slacking to a certain extent ba..
haiz..nothing to say le la..sianz..bye

Thursday, August 18, 2005

hmmm...i know i am seriously blogging very very little nowadays..
becoz sch life is really hectic these days
and mock exams and test papers have becomed a part of me liaoz..
so is maplestory..

but the bestest thing tt happened this week was spiky..
and although tt has been probs from friends since we got together..
i'm sure we can get through it together..

i hope those tt we hurt can find their own happiness too..
and move on with their lives..

then then..back to ms..

Monday, August 15, 2005

i am multi-tasking..
eating, talking on the phone with jorge, talking to david and adrian on the net and finding info on tourism..

anyway..my oral totally sux today..and it seriously did..
i got tongued tied in the middle of tt 'money is root of all evil blah blah blah' question..
and i guess it pulled down all my other marks for my previous sections..sianz..
i was perfectly fine without any prompting all the way through till this stupid question..


haiz..dun want say le..

anyway, my character on ms got its hairstyle le!! so happy siah..
wasted ten bucks to buy the prepaid card..
but my character so pretty now..even got pple say wanna be its gf..
hahaz..but it is attached like me le..
so too bad..

now i need to level up to overtake tharer so bye!


i got a B3 for my chi'olevels..all due to my lousy chinese communication skills..
if i hadnt gotten juz merely..merely a pass for oral..i wouldnt be getting such a grade..
so i am going to cut myself some slack and decide not to retake my chinese..
afterall..my written paper muz be good to actually help me attain this B3 tt my classmates also got with a merit for oral..
yep yep..

so we celebrated jonas b-day cum results release on friday after long remedials..at swedens in westmall!

then on saturday, jieying came my house to do tt geog project thingy and ken came to use my comp to play ms..and we went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory..so nice man..
its so lame till u are seriously speechless..hahaz..
so everyone reading this..go watch it!!

hmmm..and also,hopefully tm's eng oral would be perfect..and tt my throat would be clear..muz get over 30/40 for sure..and not repeat tt stupid pass like in chi..

so to every sec 4 in swiss..good luck for eng o'levels oral! also to tianseng and jeffrey..
as for other pple, i dun really care..

so ciaoz!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

there's always so little time and so much to do..
and no one takes time to relax..
except me tt is..

to pple..i am juz someone who is forever enjoying life..taking time to do things tt i like instead of doing things tt are impt..

and with olevels juz months away..i wonder if i should rethink again and ask myself..
how much time do i have left??

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

okie..havent been blogging much lately..and all i have ever done was load pictures..pictures and more pictures..

so u are basically just looking at my blog and not actually reading it..
becoz there is nothing to read..yeah..

anyway..cant really say much..

hmmm, went to the lib with jonas, kenneth aka spiky, alvin and imran on sat..finally understood a bit of the stupid addmaths chapter on vectors..
then shuli came late..so we left first to go home chiong ms again..

then on sat, i went for youth breakfast at church for one hr..passed money to friend for her mgs fund raising thingy tt i dun really know..
then headed less than a km to meet alvin and kenneth to go jorge's house for some birthday gathering..

spent most of my time staring at the comp screen..looking at jorge's sis playing ms..oohing and ahhing at how high her level was..

then we played the no. guessing game..
and alvin, wingki and jieying all suay suay had to drink up 3 huge glasses of water..
i lost once but they ended the game after tt so no need to forfeit..so lucky..
then went home chiong ms again..

today..went mac with spiky and alvin..
then shuli, hadfidz and candice came along unexpectedly..
and then we as part of the ms gang..chiong home play ms again..

and the stupid random hair coupon gave me a stupid hairdo..u will understand if u play ms tt is..
then headed for piano lesson..go cut hair literally and back home again..

so as u can see..my life is basically boring and mundane..yes it is..
it revolves around ms and nothing else..
so avoid my blog if u wanna read intereting stuff..hahaz..

bye..

Saturday, July 30, 2005

yesterday we did celebrate ms kaur's birthday..and happens so i was the only one who brought a cam..

aiyou..but nontheless..we had lotsa fun..so here are the pics!!


the birthday cake


cake with card tt i made..


my goodness..is ms kaur digging her nose?!


darth kaur is coming!!!


can't believe i took this pic with everyone having their eyes closed..


4e3 rocks..yeah we do..


there are actually a lot more pics tt i didnt put up..they are only for 4e3 peeps..lol..

but i forgot to put up the class pic for racial harmony day and the kolam design pic here the other day so here they are:




the kolem with kaishin and liyana in the back ground

anyway tt's all for now..wanna go play ms already..see ya!

Friday, July 29, 2005

i'm level 21 in maplestory..yess..still lagging behind imran, jonas, wingki, kenneth, alvin, wenfeng, weishun..but catching up soon..so u guys watch out..i not noob already!!

lol..anyway..my class won the kolam designing competition..lalalalala..
and there's always this a great feeling when u win something..even if it is just some water bottle tt is lime green in colour..
and to think i only spent 5 min during mr wee's boring physics lesson to come up with the design..

hmmm..and today was ms kaur's birthday..but we forgot to do anything..
so we are celebrating it tml and perhaps order pizza and eat secretly in class..=)
i also made a huge card..huge black card for our dear darth kaur..where our whole class can sign in it..
and i know she will surely like it becoz it is black..lalalalala..

oh ya..gotta take pics tml again..and then can put into the class video..so fun..

lastly, to peeps in 4e3..pls clear ur inboxes..the reason why the pictures didnt get to you is becoz ur inbox is either full or u nv go check ur mail for more than a month le..
i will be trying to send those pictures again this weekend..if u all still cannot receive..then might as well juz take the memory stick from me and load onto ur comp urself..

yep yep..so bye for now..late already..

Sunday, July 24, 2005

okie..so here are the remaining pics:


playing in class


eating in class..secretly


choking on potato chips


fat wee


razi, adi and hairul acting cool


yuan ruo goin into lala land, weishun saying hi to the floor and tharer saying cheese to the cam


in the process of doing a makeover for hafidz


tada! a brand new look..hafidz look so pretty now!!!


hafidz saying "i love being a chiken"


stupid jonas tiptoed..unfair


'dao' look


(from left)my son, my bro, me and my mummy


4e3 rocks~!


jonas is falling asleep..and giving tt pervertic look..


me and 3 chiobus


hairul is so extra..pop! into the pic


jieying and me


shuli's hand is a ghost..but why is she human?!


stupid poses we came up with


aiyou..my son really looked like grass in the pic..


they look like a couple right??..but they are not..lol


candice and hafidz celebrating new yr in the month of july


me and imran


my son, bro and auntie again


the perfect family portrait


the not so perfect family protrait


jonas the criminal


crime = has been bullshitting nonstop for 2 yrs


the reason why i wasnt able to finish putting up all the pics ytd was becoz my stupid stupid stupid mum threw a cup of barley at me and forced me to off the comp or she wun give me allowance and cut the internet line..

i dunno what is her damn prob seriously..becoz i am not some robot who doesnt need any breaks or enjoyment or entertainment..

however, it looks like she is indeed tt unreasonable being tt she always have been..
who think tt by cutting off my resources of enjoyment, tt would make me obedient and spend all my time buried in books..

she is so wrong man..becoz she has only made me hate her even more..

pple in my family juz think tt i dun give a damn bout anything but they dun even know i am trying..but what's the pt of saying all this right?

it doesnt make a difference at all..

oh ya..and if my parents dun believe tt i went to watch a concert ytd..fine..not like i will die of being wronged and unjustified..

if u dun like me to explain myself..and prove u wrong..fine..just let u think whatever ur stupid brain conjured up..let u think i am one rebellious girl whom u regretted giving birth to..
let u think it was a mistake for raising me up..

becoz i will treat it as an honour for being so infamous in ur mind..

Saturday, July 23, 2005

these few days..something has been so evident in my class..
as for where it came from..i dunno..i guess maybe its becoz of the racial harmony comp and the class video making..
but seriously, our class has been displaying alot of class spirit these few days tt it is really astonishing..
and now,i think my class is really united in some way and we can prove to others tt we are the best graduating class of the batch of 2005!

here are the pic i took this week for compilation into the class video..


tryin' hard to act lame


adi, u are spoiling the pic..sit down!


my hardworking son and brother at work..


woah..class geniuses caught playing


the guy with the biggest and most disgusting looking arm muscles


me and candice in our racial harmony costumes


two shuai ge(alvin and kenneth) and one chio bu(jonas)


candice and weishun posing..with ws trying hard to act like a darth vader


class dudes..with tharer on the right looking so serene..


devi and zakiyah..and me falling asleep


jorge and me


my lovely partner jieying and me....

hmm, the remaining ones will be put up on another day..so be patient..till then..diana signing off here

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

racial harmony day is coming up and i want to wear an ethic costumes..
yes..just like the previous yrs..

and this time, i might just wear a grass skirt and empty coconut shells only..
isnt tt cool? imagine freezing into a huge block of ice in class with the aircon constantly blowing in my face.. yeah.. rocks..

or i might copy hairul's idea of wearing a spiderman outfit to school..
or i should say spiderwoman..giving the fact tt in the past thre days..i experienced having spiders clinging to my shirt for 2 times already..
this shows tt spiders actually like me..hmmm..
it would be cool..tt i can show my ugly figure to everyone in the figure-hugging outfit and show my flat chest..great!

or i can choose to wearing rolls of toilet paper or long curtains and make them look like wonderful saris wrapped around me..
then i would be able to attract everyone's attention..and everyone would stare at me as if i am some clown or weirdo or freak who has just gotten off the wrong side of the bed..
this is difinitely on my list of possible costumes to wear..

well..just wait and see..i'm sure i will fascinate all of u out there with my out of ordinary pretty outstanding costumes on thurs..till then :)

Monday, July 18, 2005

too much computer games does damage..this is seriously true..becoz it is so so addictive..
even i got hooked on..
and so did jonas, imran, kenneth, wingki,alvin and weishun..
hahaz..at least i am not the only one being sucked into the world of maplestory..

anyway..the last few days were indeed spent on the comp and i only exercised my fingers..
which is seriously pathetic..

but its alright since i exercised on fri after the chi olevels listening compre..
went to play badminton in the sch hall secretly with the badminton gang till bout 7+ and for the first time i joined them at their stupid fav 'fila' restaurant..

it's extremely disturbing as to how much they can eat..esp kokhien..who can eat 6 pratas at one go which is really scary..
and as for alvin..he really has to stop drinking tt bandung..or he will get diabeties one day..

lastly..to peeps playing maplestory..i am not a noob!!! and alvin, stop telling me to restart!

Thursday, July 14, 2005

hmmm..lately, i havent been taking candice's dad's car home..
instead, i dunno why, but i have ended up going home with my class guys for the last 2 days..
and IT IS NOT FUN..

seriously..i wonder if there are actually any decent guys in this world who nv had any dirty thoughts bout ladies, girls, bimbos and bitches..

becoz hanging out with my class guys is extremely chaotic..
see me small size easy to bully then keep finding ways to disturb me..
haiz..not like they are tall either..alvin only a few cm taller than me..what's the big deal right? lol..i will grow taller de lo..

also, stop playing in the mrt carriage pls..take take take my book hit me not fun hor..
so childish! seems like u love to make old ladies and aunties and old ahpeks stare at you guys..

anyway..for revenge..i am going to talk non-stop tml and irritate kokhien, alvin, kenneth and jingxiang..
u guys watch out becoz diana is no pushover wor..hahaz..
till then..

*then again, maybe i will spare kenneth becoz he's my son..*

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

school life is so boring nowadays..everyday, we are being made to complete countless sets of exam papers as hw and we have mock exams and class tests all the time..
its sad..however competition is so stiff within our own sch, not to say in the entire of s'pore..so we have no choice but to work hard and study hard and play less..
nontheless, i never fail to entertain myself in btwn breaks..since i am just too full of nonsensical crap le..
here goes:


-i'm thinking..what should i do to entertain myself?
go eat? go watch tv? play maplestory??




-hmmm..eh..eh..eh..




-aha! i know le i know le!!




-i am not bad eh? can think of such a crappy thing to do..




-*evil laugh*..hahahaz..




-but i muz be quiet and stop being a talking machine gun for 1 sec..
-yeah..i can do it wor..




-yes!! i got it and nobody found out..my plan worked!
-wanna know what is it? guess!




-cont guessing!



-its...*drumroll* pls.."tuesdays with morrie"!!
-i stole it from my sis room!!
-*audience claps for diana*



hahahahahahahahahahahahahaz..i am just so lame manz..


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